Am I an Atheist ?

I had never thought of writing blogs, until i started following My best friend's (Vishnu) blog. Thanks to him for inspiring me to write some non-sense like this :)
I was not thinking for long time on choosing the topic to start my blog. I had my own opinions on the existence of GOD. I tried to question myself on it. So, aptly it struck rightly in my mind, that this has to be my first blog.

I was brought up well in religious environment. My mother does poojas daily. It was a tradition in my family (still is) to bathe the bronze idols of God which we have in our pooja room daily. Even i used to do poojas for more than half an hour till my 11th std. I dont feel shame in telling this. I used to believe that if i missed doing pooja on anyone day, i will be punished by god. The basic belief with me at that time was, God was with me all the time and he will take care of my things.

But there was a sudden change in my attitude, when i finished my schooling. I never had the feeling for God , after i entered my college. I am not sure, why that thing happened. I stopped going to temple and even thinking or praying to God , even during auspicious days like semester exams :) I started questioning the people's belief on God. I thought about the things that people used to do like piercing their body, mouth with things . Does God expects all these things from us ?

I have always believed that the power of nature is far superior than us. But many things pertaining to God never makes sense to me. Temple has always been a place , where people come to tell their problems. Some things are there in life which are beyond hope. These things related to God are in our blood. No one can deny that, the strong belief in God has been the roots of many problems in the world like communal, caste and terrorism.

I am not a big fan of Periyar or kalaignar, who believes rather in people than God.
The religious history of our nation seems like more of fantasy than reality to me.
Belief is the best companion to anyone who is in a bad situation. I dont blame on the beliefs of the million peoples. But Iam very surprised to how they take these beliefs to next level like senseless things like hurting themselves in name of God.

Also, I always had the aversion towards people who call themselves as gifted from God like saamiyars. Many have been proved to be guilty of sexual harassment. I don't see how people fall for their trap. Religion has become the easiest way to lure people nowadays.

I think I am neither religious nor atheist. I just like to question the beliefs of people as to why they do these things that makes complete non-sense. This is the first thing that has strike to my sixth sense.